Honor the writing. Honor the silence. Honor your life stories and you will be fine.
Here’s a meditation for you to consider when you have something that is bugging you — a problem of some sort. It combines riding your bike and writing in a journal.
Here’s how you start: you begin by writing out what is bothering you in your journal. Get it all out on paper. Your mind is busy, but your body is basically still. Then, pack up your journal in your pannier or bike bag, and get on your bike. Don’t forget a pen!
While riding, use the basic bicycling meditation until you are relaxed and open. It is very likely that your problem is going to come up while you ride. There’s lots of ways it could come up: a conversation gets replayed in your head or a feeling wells up inside. What you do when this happens is, you say to yourself, “Oh. There’s that bunch of thoughts (or feelings) again.” Acknowledge that they exist, and then return to your pedaling or your breathing as a focus. Don’t try to force the thoughts or feelings away, or greet them with anger or frustration. They are just what they are, thoughts or feelings. So just recognize them, and then let them go, and return to your body moving rhythmically and naturally on your bicycle. Now your body is moving, and you are aware of the movement, but your mind is basically still.
Finally, you reach a place where you will be comfortable sitting and writing for a while. If it’s a sunny day, maybe it’s a shady picnic table at a park. If it’s a cold day, it might be inside a cozy coffeehouse, with a steaming mug at your side. For me, it’s helpful not to be at home or at work — somehow being away from all the normal distractions helps me get a better perspective.
Pull out your journal, and re-read what you wrote before. Now you’re ready to write again. I find it very helpful to write a focus phrase that will indicate that I am ready for a deeper perspective. An example could be, “I am now available to receive my own fuller visions” or, “I am available now. I receive gifts of direction from my Greater [or “Higher”] Self.” Another one could be, “I am your Guardian Angel, and I would like you to know…”
Then, write about your problem or your situation again. Maybe you now have a different viewpoint than when you started riding; maybe not. Your body is now basically still, but your mind is back, working. Write until you feel you are done writing. Then put the journal away.
Get back on the bike, and resume a cycling meditation, again using pedaling or your breath as a focus. Again, the issue you wrote about may come up again. That’s okay — again, acknowledge it, and let it go, and return to your focus. Your body is moving, your mind returns to stillness.